Wednesday, June 24, 2009

buses and trains by bachelor girl



Hey Mom
Why didn't you tell me
Why didn't you teach me a thing or two
You just let me go
Out into the World
You never thought to share what you knew

So I walked under a bus
I got hit by a train
Keep falling in love
Which is kinda the same
I've sunk out at sea
Crashed my car, gone insane
And it felt so good
I want to do it again

Hey Mom
Why didn't you warn me
Coz about boys is something i should have known
They`re like chocolate cake
Like cigarettes
I know they're bad for me
But I just can't leave 'em alone

So I walked under a bus
I got hit by a train
Keep falling in love
Which is kinda the same
I've sunk out at sea
Crashed my car, gone insane
And it felt so good
I want to do it again

(AND I WALKED)UNDER A BUS
I GOT HIT BY A TRAIN
AND IT FEELT SO GOOD
AND I WANNA DO IT AGAIN
WANNA DO IT AGAIN
*HEY EY IEEY*
(WANNA DO IT)
Oh, felt so good

Hey Mom
Since we're talking
What was it like when you were young
Has the world changed
Or is it still the same
A man can kill and still be the sweetest love.

So I walked under a bus
I got hit by a train
Keep falling in love
Which is kinda the same
I've sunk out at sea
Crashed my car, gone insane
And it felt so good

So I walked under a bus
I got hit by a train
Keep falling in love
Which is kinda the same
I've sunk out at sea
Crashed my car, gone insane
And it felt so good
I want to do it again
I want to do it again

lyrics from: sing365.com


i love this song. it is one of the songs i wanted to sing when i still had a band but never was able to. when i hear it, i think about all that i have gone through in love. why is it that after a relationship comes to an end, we vow to ourselves not to go through all that again, only to find ourselves falling in love again? but it doesn't stop there 'cause we also find ourselves hurting all over again, then the relationship eventually comes to an end as well. such a cycle... but then again, it isn't really the falling in love that we don't want to go through again. who doesn't want the flowers in the air, everything's beautiful, all happy feeling? i guess, we all do. it's just the hurting, of course, that no one ever wants to go about again.

this song is different from all that blubber about loving and hurting. it actually says that after all she has gone through in love, she still wants to do it again. such a masochist huh? loving or being in love was even likened to being hit by a train or ran over by a bus. well maybe, it just didn't include that she wants to do it again and again because she doesn't want to stop loving so as to finally find the right person for her.

whatever the writer of this song really means, how many times do we really have to love? how many times do we have to hurt? how many times do we have to make those mistakes over and over again before we find the right one?

oh and when do we know it's the right one? oh well, but that's another story.

mom used to to tell me something like, when you love don't give too much nor too little, but just enough. that puzzled me because it's kinda hard to do. but i guess, as i grew older and more mature, it seems that it's not that hard anymore. i realized that it doesn't have to be taken literally. i interpret it now as just still keeping your head when it comes to love, being level-headed. with all the experiences, i somehow tend not to get too much overwhelmed nor clouded by love anymore. it's easier to think and use my head now that i know better, rather than before when i was just a mere neophyte. though i know that my mom couldn't really protect me from hurts and pains, i am just glad that she is around when i go through difficult times.

though we fall in love and have relationships with different kinds of people, somehow relationship "per se" remains the same. we all go through good, bad, happy, difficult times. we go through rough battles to make the relationship work. we hurdle all the challenges to stay together. we defy every contradiction or situation, conquer all our fears. and so, whoever it is we are with, even if the circumstances are different, it is still being in love.