being happy

when i was much, much younger it seemed that it was hard to be happy or that it was such a feat to achieve happiness in life. i always try to find things to do, places to go to, stuff to buy, and all other quests for trivial or superficial things just so i can say or feel that i am truly enjoying myself and my life. but then again, i guess that's part of growing-up. i was still so naive and thought that happiness should always come in fantabulous packages that give out extra sensational feelings.

now that am much older and mature, i have learned to appreciate small things in life. i become to see things as i have never seen them before or things that i overlooked or took for granted... little things that truly make me happy. i realize that i failed to see the beauty and meaning of life in very simple things. it's the kind of happiness that couldn't be taken away in spite of and no matter what... the simple joys of life.

happiness, just like life, is indeed a choice...

smile...

"pinili kong maging masaya dahil mas madaling ngumiti.... kaysa ipaliwanag kung bakit ako malungkot...." (i choose to be happy because it is easier to smile than to explain why i am lonely.)

from www.smileyland.com

those were the words printed on a shirt i saw from a pic in a friend's multiply account. and i want to have a shirt like that. it's even colored green, very simple, but it exactly says how i am when am lonely.

as they say, people who have more smiles hide behind the same amount of tears. i guess that goes for many people out there. pinoys are generally happy people. we tend to be joyful amidst all the odds we are in, which is a very good thing. there are only a few people who are transparent with their feelings. most often than not, we tend to hide our true feelings, not because we want to lie but simply because we don't want to talk about it. truly, it's so much easier to smile than to explain why you have a frown on your face and answer endless why?? questions.

why are you lonely?

because my parents scolded me.

why?

because i came in late last night.

why?

because i went out with my friends and got drunk.

why?

because.......

and it goes on..... and on..... and on..... and on.......


isn't it tiring to answer so many questions specially when you are not in that chatty- spill-the-beans mood and you don't really want to talk about heavy, dramatic stuff? and so to avoid putting yourself in that uncomfortable Q&A situation, you just smile...

yes, i do smile often too. actually i smile more now than when i was younger. there are actually so much to smile about in my life that i have not noticed before. but whether my smiles are made of happiness or sadness, only i know what lies beneath them.

bangles galore and more!

when i was starting with my multiply account, one of my first contacts is baubles, bangles, & beads. this very creative and artistic group was and still is being featured in television and magazines. i dont really remember though if i saw it on tv or read bout it then, but i was really interested in the designs even though i am not really that fond of bangles. so, i added the group up in my contact list. although that was kinda long time ago, it was only in july of this year that i made my first order.

it was very hard for me to choose from the many cool and funky designs. it was also hard to trim down my many choices into just 3 pieces of bangles. what helped me make my decision? well, 2 of those bangles were gifts to friends, so i just thought of what they like. then, the other one was for me. that was kinda hard to decide though coz there were really sooooo many designs that i so fancy... hay.... but anyhow, i just chose the same design with one of the 2 bangles i have already chosen. anywayz, what the heck with all the chenelyn, churva, and eklavu of dilemma... :D theres always next time. hopefully, i will be able to buy every design that i want. hehe.... besides, its not anymore only bangles or beads that i can buy. now, baubles, bangles, & beads also sells the same artistic, hand-made creations in the form of bags and shoeseseses! hehehe....

i am very much satisfied with my bangle purchase. twas really also a very good first time online purchase experience in multiply. its very easy to deal with baubles, bangles, and beads, and that i believe, is because of pao's undeniable charisma. ahehehe! sana naman pao, one of these days e ma-meet ko, hindi lang ikaw, but all of you great people behind baubles, bangles, & beads.

am so looking forward to my next purchase... :)

GRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

photo courtesy of asianweek.com

i have been trying for sooooooooo veeeeeeeeeeeeery loooooooooooong now to update my blog with a new template but unfortunately i always get this annoying bx error code:

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apparently, it is not easy to report to blogger even though millions of subscribers encounter the same problem. the only thing you can do is post your problem on their help group. yun lang! and you will wait if someone or a subscriber like yourself can help you. you cannot directly contact anybody from blogger. doesnt that suck?!? and if you visit their help group, particularly in the "something is broken" group, you will find a whole bunch of people having different kinds of bx error code problems. and blogger doesnt even say anything if theyre doin something about it or not. Whatever happened to: "This information will help us to track down your specific problem and fix it! We apologize for the inconvenience" huh???

this is also the reason why i lost all the things i customized in my blog. i was able to save my old template, ya... but! all the things inside the widgets are gone! that means i lost my blog links, web links, videos, pix.... everything! so now i have to just stick with my old template until blogger does something about it because the only things that you can retain when this kinda problem happens are your blog entries. thankfully... but that isnt good enough. i know that this is a free blogging site, but i hope blogger, or google for that matter, will take extra effort in helping their subscribers since if not also for us, they will not have been as popular as they are today.