Tuesday, October 20, 2009

"gorecki" by lamb




gorecki

if i should die this very moment
i wouldn't fear
for i've never known completeness
like being here
wrapped in the warmth of you
loving every breath of you
still my heart this moment
or it might burst
could we stay right here
until the end of time until the earth stops turning
wanna love you 'till the seas run dry
i've found the one i've waited for

all this time i've loved you
and never known your face
all this time i've missed you
and searched this human race
here is true peace
here my heart knows calm
safe in your soul
bathed in your sighs
wanna stay right here
until the end of time
'til the earth stops turning
gonna love you until the seas run dry
i've found the one i've waited for

the one i've waited for

all i've known
all i've done
all i've felt was leading to this
all i've known
all i've done
all i've felt was leading to this
wanna stay right here
'til' the end of time 'till the earth stops turning
i'm gonna love you till the seas run dry
i've found the one I've waited for
the one i've waited for
the one i've waited for

wanna stay right here
'til the end of time 'till the earth stops turning
i'm gonna love you till the seas run dry
i've found the one i've waited for
the one i've waited for
the one i've waited for


it's been a long while since i have blogged again... there may be so many topics to write about or songs to post, but i couldn't find myself to write. the things that have happened in the past weeks have left me first, dumbfounded, then in deep contemplation.

i have always known that life is short. death can come to anyone at anytime. but i never imagined myself dying tragically. as dramatic or artistic as i may seem to be, i don't desire neither a dramatic nor artistic ending. if i can choose my own, i want it as simple, as silent, and as painless as it can be.

but even those who drowned and left with Ondoy and Pepeng must have also wished a happy and peaceful kind of dying. they, too, never thought that they would pass that way. and if i was one of them, would i be ready? i never feared dying, per se. but would i be ready for a death as sudden? and as helpless? see, i never really learned how to swim. i can float and manage a few strokes, yes. but these meager skills can't save me from drowning from the floods of Ondoy or Pepeng. much as i wanted passing on peacefully, what would i do in such a situation? how 'bout my loved ones, would i be able to help them?

living life is already hard in itself. i don't understand why dying can be as hard or even harder. what's with all the things happening around us nowadays?!? killer typhoons, earthquakes, plane crash... what else would be next? although i am really very thankful that my family and i, as well as most of my friends are okay and survived the recent calamities, still... it's really very sad and hard to see those people die that way. if the things that transpired may be the signs of the times, then may God bless us all...

***

hearing this song on NU107 for the first time, led me to think things and blog again. it made me write this entry. for what? nothing. just to think and realize that whenever God may choose to have me, i will not complain. i am more than thankful for all the blessings and love He has surrounded me with to complain. besides, no one really knows how we are all gonna die. even those who are ill can never be really ready when the time comes. so, as for me, i will be wherever God wants me to be till the last of my days... always thankful, always grateful... and greatly loved.

yeah... this song encompasses everything am feeling right now.

am good to go anytime.

well 'am all good to go... as long as i get my death wish not to have a funeral until i get cremated. i want to remain alive....

...in your memories of course. :)

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