Wednesday, August 26, 2009

my mommy

i think i never blogged about my mom. i don't know why though. i've even blogged 'bout my tita more than her. anyhow, now is the time, i guess...


i remember, i grew up going out with my mom every weekends. we usually go to the mall. but as time went by, our weekend dates became less and less. it was because of quite a few reasons. one, for example, is that i grew up and going to the mall is not that much of an excitement anymore for a teener exploding with curiosity and wanting to conquer the world and experience everything she can. i had other things going around in my life. and as i was growing up, there were things i prioritized more, which i later realized were just trivial things.

although i know that i should've always put more importance to my mom and my time with her, i also don't think i would've come to realize that fact if i did not go through some things in my life. i am also lucky enough to have a mom who is patient and kind. she is the kindest, in fact. and although she didn't fall short of reminders, advices, guidance, and all, she was never a nag or dictated me on what i should do. she just let me be and well... just let me grow up and learn things on my own.

lately, even how much mom and i want to go out as often as we used to, we just suffice ourselves with once in a while dates and bonding moments. before my mom had her 3 major operations, she wasn't able to stand long walks anymore. and even after she had those operations, she still finds it hard to walk since her hip bones are already artificial. and to add to that, she was also diagnosed with asthma and enlargement of the heart a few years ago. and i guess, of course, she is older now. she needs and wants to rest at times, specially when she was still working.

now, mommy is officially a retiree. although we still can't go gimiks and mallings very often, she has plenty of time for rest to gear up for our next escapade. i notice that mom is really excited nowadays to go out. she even agreed to an out of the country vacation, which wouldn't likely happen when i was still younger. she was a workaholic to the bone. as in! i even once told her that we could've gone to many places before, if she wasn't only too focused on work. but i guess mom had no choice then. she raised me singlehandedly.

since mom has also gone through so much in life, it's just about time for her to enjoy. she deserves all the best things in life. i hope i can give her more than what she has given me and i pray to God that He gives us longer time to be together here on earth. i don't want anything more than a great, if not the best life for my mom and the longest she can get.



happy birthday mommy! i am nothing without you... i love you so much.




mommy tasting the cheese fondue, me posing with the five cows boxes... hehe...


tuna sandwich and fish and chips (hindi kse kami mahilig sa isda e... ;p)


text on the balloons says "national banana split day," akalain mo... meron palang ganun???

Tuesday, August 11, 2009

hay buhay ng sugarfree



parang kailan lang nung ako’y nagsimula pa lang matutong
matuto tumayo, maglakad, sumabay, at lumangoy sa alon ng buhay, ng aking buhay

kay hirap din palang hanapin ang iyong sarili
sa isang mundong laging nagmamadali
sa kakahabol ay tuluyan nang napagod at napaupo
naisip ko nang sumuko


dahil nakita mo na akong sumablay, narinig mo na ang puso kong bumigay


hay buhay, hay buhay, hay buhay nga naman...


parang kailan lang nung ako’y huling umibig
at linamon, linason ng kilig

bawat pangako ng ligaya, sinalubong ng trahedya
ang habangbuhay, naging babay


parang kailan lang nung ako ay mag isa’t nakadapa na, walang wala na
ako’y natutong magdasal, manalig sa maykapal
at unti unti, sa aking sarili

pipilitin kong di na muling sumablay, o ang puso ko hindi na muling bumigay

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ang mga titik ng kanta at larawan ng album ay mula sa: www.WeAreSugarfree.com

hay..... ang galing-galing talaga ng sugarfree. ngayon ko pa lang narinig ang kantang ito, kasabay na rin sa panonood ng kaakibat nitong mtv, pero grabe! hindi pa rin ako binigo ng sugarfree. lalo lang nadagdagan ang paghanga ko sa kanila, lalong-lalo na sa pagsulat ni ebe dancel ng titik ng awiting ito. isang simpleng-simpleng kanta na tumagos na naman sa akin, at syempre nagpaalala rin sa akin na gusto ko nga palang kumpletuhin ang kanilang mga albums. wala ka talagang itatapon sa kanilang mga kanta.

ang "hay buhay" ay ang current single mula sa bago nilang album na may pamagat na "mornings and airports." isang magandang titulo, sa aking palagay, na nababagay talaga sa mga katulad ng sugarfree na halos nabubuhay na yata mula sa mga paliparan hindi lang dito sa ating bansa, kungdi pati na rin sa buong mundo. o kung hindi man na gaya nilang bandista, may mga tao ring tila kaakibat na ang mga paliparan sa kanilang buhay, gaya ng mga taong madalas bumiyahe. may mga tao kasing nakakabit ang buhay sa bawat pagbiyahe... sa bawat paglipad... sa bawat paglapag... sa bawat pagdating... sa bawat pag-alis... at sa bawat paghihintay.

kaya't masasabi ring ang pagbiyahe ay hindi lamang tinutukoy ang literal nitong kahulagan na pagpunta o paglipad patungo sa kung saan-saang lugar. ito rin ay maaring maging simbolo ng byahe ng ating mga buhay.

naisip ko tuloy ang aking sariling biyahe... 'ika nga ng kanta:

"parang kailan lang nung ako ay mag isa’t nakadapa na, walang wala na
ako’y natutong magdasal, manalig sa maykapal
at unti unti, sa aking sarili"

lahat yata ng tao ay dumarating sa mga ganoong pagkakataon na halos nakalugmok na sa pagkakadapa, na halos walang-wala nang maibubuga, at ubos na ubos na. akalain man nating wala na tayong patutunguhan o wala nang kwenta ang ating buhay, isang tawag lang naman ang kailangan nating gawin, isang matinding pananalig... sabi nga nila, kapag walang-wala ka nang mapuntahan, iisa lang naman ang walang pag-iimbot na makikinig at tatanggap sa'yo. at kapag kumapit ka sa Kanya, walang imposible. isa itong importanteng hakbang na kailangan nating gawin upang umahon. kasunod na rin ng panunumbalik ng tiwala sa sarili ang paniniwala sa walang kapantay na pagmamahal ng Diyos.

oo nga, pinagdaanan ko palang lahat ng mga 'yon. at oo nga ulit, parang kailang nga lang... sino nga bang mag-aakalang nanggaling pala ako sa dilim at malalim na hukay na iyon? sino bang mag-aakalang nalunod rin ako sa pighati at pag-iisa? na minsan sa aking buhay ay walang-wala rin akong pag-asa? walang-walang patutunguhan?

sino bang mag-aakalang kakayanin kong bumangon pang muli?

at sino rin bang mag-aakalang mas magiging maayos pa ang buhay ko ngayon? sino ba ang mag-aakalang mas magiging masaya ako ngayon?

minsan nga raw ay masalimuot ang buhay. hindi natin alam kung bakit nagaganap ang mga bagay-bagay o kung saan ba talaga tayo dadalhin ng ating buhay. siguro kailangan lang talaga nating manampalataya... maniwalang meron nga tayong patutunguhan. sabi nga, may plano ang Diyos para sa ating lahat. siguro ay inihahanda lamang Niya tayo sa buhay na talagang nauukol para sa atin kaya kailangan nating pagdaanan ang hirap at sakit.

kaya ako... tuloy-tuloy lang ang buhay! maliban sa paniniwala at pagpapaubaya ko sa Diyos ng aking buhay, e syempre...

"pipilitin kong di na muling sumablay, o ang puso ko hindi na muling bumigay"

:)

;p



Friday, August 07, 2009

conspiracy august 2009 gig sked

1 (Sat) - Benefit Show
2 (Sun) - Gospel jam (5-8pm)
3 (M) - Piano Night with Rica Arambulo
4 (Tue) - Writers Night (KM 64) 7-9pm/Lynn Sherman and Egay Avenir
5 (W) - Noel Cabangon
6 (Thu) - Bigkas Pilipinas Open Jam
7 (Fri) - Joey Ayala
8 (Sat) - Swissy/ Shift
9 (Sun) - Gospel Jam (5-8pm)
10 (M) - 3P
11 (Tue) - Writers Night (Alitaptap Storytellers Phil.) 7-9pm/Ray Olaguer
12 (W) - Noel Cabangon
13 (Th)- Brazilian Night: Bossa Nova & Samba Music feat. Guarana
14 (F)- RJ JMNZ
15 (Sat) Cynthia Alexander
16 (Sun)- Gospel Jam (5-8pm)
17 (M)- Songwriters Night
18 (Tue) Writers Night (Lirahan) 7-9pm/ Toto Sorioso
19 (W)- Noel Cabangon
20 (Th)- Bliss Café Baguio presents Dharma@Conspiracy
21 (F)- Tori Amos Birthday Tribute
22 (Sat) - Cynthia Alexander
23 (Sun)- Gospel Jam (5-8pm)
24 (M)- Mars Garcia with Michael Puyat
25 (Tue)- Writers Night (Bigkas Pilipinas & CDC) 7pm-9pm/William Elvin
26 (W)- Noel Cabangon
27 (Th)- Light it Up: Christian Musicians Night
28 (F)- Miguel Escueta
29 (Sat)- Comedy Night: Mike Unson -Single & 30STH with Stanley Chi, Uli Oposa, Derf Hebrado & LC de Leon
30 (Sun)- Gospel Jam (5-8pm)
31 (Mon)- Salinawit ni Pete feat. Pete Lacaba and Friends



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