Wednesday, June 24, 2009

buses and trains by bachelor girl



Hey Mom
Why didn't you tell me
Why didn't you teach me a thing or two
You just let me go
Out into the World
You never thought to share what you knew

So I walked under a bus
I got hit by a train
Keep falling in love
Which is kinda the same
I've sunk out at sea
Crashed my car, gone insane
And it felt so good
I want to do it again

Hey Mom
Why didn't you warn me
Coz about boys is something i should have known
They`re like chocolate cake
Like cigarettes
I know they're bad for me
But I just can't leave 'em alone

So I walked under a bus
I got hit by a train
Keep falling in love
Which is kinda the same
I've sunk out at sea
Crashed my car, gone insane
And it felt so good
I want to do it again

(AND I WALKED)UNDER A BUS
I GOT HIT BY A TRAIN
AND IT FEELT SO GOOD
AND I WANNA DO IT AGAIN
WANNA DO IT AGAIN
*HEY EY IEEY*
(WANNA DO IT)
Oh, felt so good

Hey Mom
Since we're talking
What was it like when you were young
Has the world changed
Or is it still the same
A man can kill and still be the sweetest love.

So I walked under a bus
I got hit by a train
Keep falling in love
Which is kinda the same
I've sunk out at sea
Crashed my car, gone insane
And it felt so good

So I walked under a bus
I got hit by a train
Keep falling in love
Which is kinda the same
I've sunk out at sea
Crashed my car, gone insane
And it felt so good
I want to do it again
I want to do it again

lyrics from: sing365.com


i love this song. it is one of the songs i wanted to sing when i still had a band but never was able to. when i hear it, i think about all that i have gone through in love. why is it that after a relationship comes to an end, we vow to ourselves not to go through all that again, only to find ourselves falling in love again? but it doesn't stop there 'cause we also find ourselves hurting all over again, then the relationship eventually comes to an end as well. such a cycle... but then again, it isn't really the falling in love that we don't want to go through again. who doesn't want the flowers in the air, everything's beautiful, all happy feeling? i guess, we all do. it's just the hurting, of course, that no one ever wants to go about again.

this song is different from all that blubber about loving and hurting. it actually says that after all she has gone through in love, she still wants to do it again. such a masochist huh? loving or being in love was even likened to being hit by a train or ran over by a bus. well maybe, it just didn't include that she wants to do it again and again because she doesn't want to stop loving so as to finally find the right person for her.

whatever the writer of this song really means, how many times do we really have to love? how many times do we have to hurt? how many times do we have to make those mistakes over and over again before we find the right one?

oh and when do we know it's the right one? oh well, but that's another story.

mom used to to tell me something like, when you love don't give too much nor too little, but just enough. that puzzled me because it's kinda hard to do. but i guess, as i grew older and more mature, it seems that it's not that hard anymore. i realized that it doesn't have to be taken literally. i interpret it now as just still keeping your head when it comes to love, being level-headed. with all the experiences, i somehow tend not to get too much overwhelmed nor clouded by love anymore. it's easier to think and use my head now that i know better, rather than before when i was just a mere neophyte. though i know that my mom couldn't really protect me from hurts and pains, i am just glad that she is around when i go through difficult times.

though we fall in love and have relationships with different kinds of people, somehow relationship "per se" remains the same. we all go through good, bad, happy, difficult times. we go through rough battles to make the relationship work. we hurdle all the challenges to stay together. we defy every contradiction or situation, conquer all our fears. and so, whoever it is we are with, even if the circumstances are different, it is still being in love.

Tuesday, June 16, 2009

chavit's "baluarte"


before, i only knew chavit singson's "baluarte" from tv or magazine features. i never really thought i would eventually be able to visit the place. well, i guess it isn't part of my "places to go to" list. i don't know why though. i guess if ever there is an animal place or a zoo themed park that i want to go to, it will be at zoobic safari or the ocean adventure, or maybe the nearer malabon zoo, which i never had the chance to visit. sigh.... well anyway, even if that is so, i don't regret visiting "baluarte." i love the animals! they look too good to be true. it was like seeing cute stuffed toys... except they are alive. hihihi...


lazy tigers

since "baluarte" is located at vigan, ilocos sur, if anyone follows my blog, you might have guessed that this is another blogpost installment of my la union-vigan trip last may. there isn't so much to say 'bout this part of my trip, except that i couldn't believe that such a facility can be enjoyed by anyone for free. yes... there is no fee whatsoever. you can enjoy the beatiful birds and animals without any charge.



kyuti birds and miniature roosters and hens... :)




miniature horses cuties...



who could ever think that you can bring deers to the philippines, huh? they hardly move that you won't believe they're real.












Thursday, June 11, 2009

"nag-iisa, wala ka na" ni noel cabangon



papalubog na naman ang ilaw
nagpapaalam na naman ang araw
ang gabi ay muling mamayani
at ang lamig ay hahaplos sa pisngi

ilang araw na ang lumipas
magmula nang ika'y magpaalam
ilang gabi na ang nagdaraan
ang pag-iisa'y 'di na 'di na makayanan

ngunit kailangan kong indahin ang lamig ng gabi
ngunit kailangan kong tanggapin wala ka na sa tabi
nag-iisa, wala ka na
wala ka na, nag-iisa

ala-ala'y nagbabalik sa aking isip
mga larawan ng bawat sandali
pag-ibig nating sinumpaan
ipinangako sa liwanang ng buwan

ngunit kailangan kong indahin ang lamig ng gabi
ngunit kailangan kong tanggapin wala ka na sa tabi
wala ka na, nag-iisa
nag-iisa, wala ka na

ngunit kailangan ko nang masanay
at tanggapin na lumisan ka na ng tunay
ang lahat lahat ay bubuti ang pag-ibig ay mananatili
lagi't-lagi hanggang sa walang hanggan...


hindi ko na maalala kung kailan ako nagsimulang mahumaling sa mga awitin ni noel cabangon. basta't ang tanda ko naging madalas ang aking panonood ng kanyang mga pagtugtog sa mga restaurants/bars, hanggang sa nagkaroon na ng conspi. sa loob ng panahon na yaon ay masasabi kong kahit paano'y naging malapit na rin kami. kaya nga ako naging conspirator (at ang aking bespren) ay nang dahil na rin kay noel.

ang "nag-iisa, wala ka na" ay mula sa pinakabagong album ni noel na "himig nating pag-ibig." ito ang isa sa mga kantang nakapukaw ng aking damdamin at naging kasa-kasama ko rin sa mga panahon ng aking pag-iisa.

minsan sa ating buhay ay kailangan din nating tumigil at maging mag-isa upang matukoy natin kung ano ang nararapat para sa atin...

Wednesday, June 10, 2009

conspiracy june 2009 gig sked

1 (M) - 3P
2 (T) - Writers Night (KM 64) 7pm / TSG
3 (W) - Ray Olaguer
4 (Th)- Toto Sorioso
5 (F)- Johnoy Danao
6 (Sat) Cynthia Alexander
7 (Sun)- Gospel Jam (5-8pm)
8 (M)- Piano Night w/ Rica Arambulo
9 (T) Writers Night (Alitaptap StorytellersPhilipp ines) 7-9pm / Kate Toralba
10 (W)- Noel Cabangon
11 (Th)- Guitars for Good Governance
12 (F)- Cynthia Alexander Album Launch
13 (Sat) Comedy Night: Mike Unson MU32 The Birthday Show with Stanley Chi, Uli Oposa, Derf Hebrado and Trian Lauang
14 (Sun)- Gospel Jam (5-8pm)
15 (M)- Songwriters’ Night
16 (T)- Writers Night (Lirahan) 7pm / Cooky Chua with Mike Villegas
17 (W)- Miguel Escueta
18 (Th)- Light it Up: Christian Musicians Night
19 (F)- RJ JMNZ
20 (Sat)- Abby Asistio / Layag
21(Sun)- Gospel Jam (5-8pm)
22 (Mon)- Piano Night w/ Rica Arambulo
23 (Tue)- Writers Night (Teatro Pasiking) 7pm /Agatha
24 (Wed) - Noel Cabangon
25 (Thu) - Color it Red
26 (Fri) - Diyosa / Bayang Barrios & Mike Villegas
27 (Sat) - Mayo Baluyut with DRP
28 (Sun) - Gospel Jam (5-8pm)
29 (M) - Salinawit ni Pete featuring Cooky Chua, Lynn Sherman, Mara Viola and Pete Lacaba with Ferdie Borja on Piano
30 (Tue) - Writers Night (CDC sa Conspi) /Alamid Acoustic



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