"antukin" ni rico blanco

iniwan ka na ng eroplano
ok lang baby
'wag kang magbago
dito ka lang
humimbing
sa aking piling
antukin

kukupkupin na lang kita
sorry wala ka nang magagawa
mahalin mo na lang ako
ng sobra-sobra
para patas naman tayo
'di ba?

chorus:
sasalubungin natin ang kinabukasan
ng walang takot at walang pangamba
tadhana'y merong tip na makapangyarihan
kung ayaw may dahilan
kung gusto palaging merong paraan

pinaiyak ka ng manghuhula
hindi na raw tayo magkasamang tatanda
buti nalang
merong langit na nagtatanggol sa
pag-ibig na pursigido't matiyaga

bridge:
long as we stand as one
ano man ang ating makabangga
nothing will ever break us
wala talaga
as in wala

coda:
hahalikan nalang natin ang kinabukasan
ng buong loob at yayakapin pa
tadhana'y medyo overrated kung minsan
kung ayaw may dahilan
kung gusto palaging merong paraan

gumawa na lang tayo ng paraan
gumawa na lang tayo ng...
baby, gumawa na lang tayo ng paraan

***lyrics mula sa blog ni niña sandejas

ang entry na ito ay para sa'yo... alam mo na kung sino ka. kung bakit? basahin mo na lang 'yung title at 'yung lyrics.

una kong narinig at nakita ang mtv ng kantang ito sa blog ni niña sandejas. kaya salamat sa kanya. alam kong hindi naman siya nagbabasa ng blog ko, pero salamat pa rin. hehe... oo na, huli na ko sa lahat at kailan ko lang nalaman ang kantang ito. pero 'ika nga nila, huli man daw at magaling.... huli pa rin! ahehehe... 'di na kasi ako nakakapakinig ng NU107. at mas lalo namang hindi na ako nakakapanood ng MTV dahil wala kaming cable. isa pang kamalas-malasan, hindi rin makuha ang channel 23 sa aming sushal nga pero walang kwenta namang tv (mejo flatscreen na kse ito). kaya goodbye rin MYX. hay... e kse naman daw, digital na raw ang tv na ito, kaya kailangang may cable ka talaga para makuha mo lahat ng channel nang malinaw. kapag antenna lang ang ginamit mo, e goodluck na lang sa'yo. kaya goodluck na lang sa'kin!

bihira akong makagusto ng kantang halong ingles at tagalog ang lyrics. pero magaling talagang gumawa ng kanta si rico blanco. simple ang mga salita at pagkakasulat, at madali itong tumatak sa isipan ng sino mang makikinig. sa aking opinyon, isa si rico sa mga musikero at bandistang Filipino na magaling humabi ng mga salita upang maging isang simple ngunit makata at makabuluhan na mga kanta. nakakalungkot man na kinailangan niyang humiwalay sa dati niyang banda, nakakatuwa na rin dahil hindi siya tumigil sa pamamahagi ng kaniyang talento sa industriya ng musika. nawa'y patuloy pa rin siyang humabi ng mga masisinsin na mga awiting Filipino na ating maipagmamalaki.

kakapakinig ko lang din ngayon-ngayon lang ng kantang ito sa NU107 (o ayan, nakikinig na 'ko ulit!), kaya naisipan ko na ring i-post ang entry na ito. tutal e wala pa naman akong song entry para sa linggong ito. kaya bago ako humayo mamayang gabi papunta sa aking maikling bakasyon sa la union, na sisingitan ng maikling byahe sa ilocos ng sabado, at babalik ulit ng maynila ng linggo (kasalanan mong lahat ng ito, bespren ko doon!)... whew!!! e iiwanan ko muna ang aking blog, at ikaw na masugid na tagasubaybay ng aking blog, ng isang kyut na kyut na kanta. :) para sa'yo talaga 'to e, kasi antukin ka talaga!

the new tori amos

swiped from: spinner.com

i have shown in one of my previous entries my affinity for tori amos. i just read from a certain site that she has recently released a song (yipee!!!), "maybe california," from her new album "abnormally attracted to sin." ya, you read that right! what a title huh? the album will be available in mid-may (yey!).

i was supposed to listen to the song, but sadly, i can't play it on my browser. i duno why... ooh, let me correct that, i just did.... silly me! i cant click on the player, but the link below led me to another site where i can listen to the song. hehe... nice song, as always...

anyhow, pictures on the site prove how tori amos has evolved tremendously as an artist. and it is not just with the type of her songs, as i've mentioned in my previous blog post, but also with how she looks...

from: toriamos.com

being happy

when i was much, much younger it seemed that it was hard to be happy or that it was such a feat to achieve happiness in life. i always try to find things to do, places to go to, stuff to buy, and all other quests for trivial or superficial things just so i can say or feel that i am truly enjoying myself and my life. but then again, i guess that's part of growing-up. i was still so naive and thought that happiness should always come in fantabulous packages that give out extra sensational feelings.

now that am much older and mature, i have learned to appreciate small things in life. i become to see things as i have never seen them before or things that i overlooked or took for granted... little things that truly make me happy. i realize that i failed to see the beauty and meaning of life in very simple things. it's the kind of happiness that couldn't be taken away in spite of and no matter what... the simple joys of life.

happiness, just like life, is indeed a choice...

"sleeps with butterflies" by tori amos

no biggie this time, all i wana say is that the first time i heard this song i thought... wow, tori amos ain't that gloomy and nega anymore. hehe... i loved tori amos since i duno when. ooh, i guess since, the "silent all these years" and "cornflake girl" era, which i think was the 90s. back then, her songs are kinda sad and angst driven. but then again, maybe that's just how i exactly was at that time. i was kinda rebellious i guess, being a teener.

i have had only two tori amos albums, "under the pink," which got lost, and "the beekeeper," where this cut is included. i plan to collect all her albums, as i plan for most of the artists i fancy, but i always get sidetracked for a whole lotta reasons. but of course, at times, money is a big issue. since there are just so many artists that i so looooooove.... it's hard to budget to be able to buy them all, not to mention many other priorities.

anywayz... this is one of the songs that i like from "the beekeeper" album. of course, it's part of my so-called "life songs." i've been through much in life, as well as in relationships. i know nothing is perfect but i know my worth. my favorite lines can speak for myself...

"i'm not like the girls that you've known
but i believe i'm worth coming home to
kiss away night
this girl only sleeps with butterflies...."





airplanes
take you away again
are you flying
above where we live
then i look up a glare in my eyes
are you having regrets about last night
i'm not but i like rivers that rush in
so then i dove in
is there trouble ahead
for you the acrobat
i won't push you unless you have a net

you say the word
you know i will find you
or if you need some time
i don't mind
i don't hold on
to the tail of your kite
i'm not like the girls that you've known
but i believe i'm worth coming home to
kiss away night
this girl only sleeps with butterflies
with butterflies
so go on and fly then boy

balloons
look good from on the ground
i fear with pins and needles around
we may fall then stumble
upon a carousel
it could take us anywhere

i'm not like the girls that you've known
but i believe i'm worth coming home to
kiss away night
this girl only sleeps with butterflies
with butterflies
with butterflies
so go on and fly boy

"on my way to you"

written by marilyn & alan bergman and michel legrand



so often as i wait for sleep
i find myself reciting
the words i've said or should have said
like scenes that need rewriting
the smiles i never answered
doors perhaps i should have opened
songs forgotten in the morning
i relive the roles i've played
the tears i may have squandered
the many pipers i have paid
along the roads i've wandered
yet all the time i knew it
love was somewhere out there waiting
though i may regret a kiss or two
if i had changed a single day
what went amiss or went astray
i may have never found my way to you
if i had changed a single day
what went amiss or went astray
i may have never found my way to you
i wouldn't change a thing that happened
on my way to you...

on one of the many drinking friday nights at conspi, i, a conspirator-friend, and some others were talking about weddings and wedding songs. my conspirator-friend told me that i should listen to the song "on my way to you." if i remember it right, my friend said that her sister used it on her wedding. am not really that good in song titles, so even if i know a certain song, it doesn't necessarily mean i know the title. i told my friend that i might know the song, i just have to look for and listen to it first to find out. and so a few days after that night, i did. i found out that, yes, i do know the song.... and in fact, love it too. so thanks tinabebe, for reminding me of this great song.

as usual for me, i went looking for the original version of the song, which i believe was sung by barbara streisand. or she might be just the one who's popularly known to sing this song written by marilyn & alan bergman and michel legrand. but sadly, i can't find any online audio or video copy of it. so i just opted to embed in here the nicest versions, in my opinion, from youtube.

it was a very reflective moment when i first listened to the song and a host of its versions, as well as savoring the lyrics. this is definitely one of my lifesongs... it says everything that i've always or recently believed in. i have come to accept the fact that we all have to hurt sometimes... we commmit mistakes, make wrong decisions, and all but those are all part of life. these things mold us to be who we are and ought to be.

i remember one saying that goes something like, God allows us to meet the wrong people because He is preparing us and the person that is truly meant for us. so, we shouldn't blame God nor anybody for the pain we experience. instead, welcome it, accept it, and everything will fall into place.

as i look back on all the things i went through, i just thank God that inspite of everything, am still here. i survived... He, indeed, won't give me anything i cannot bear. i have forgiven all who may have hurt me, one way or another, in the past. i no longer bear any grudges, these things aren't for me to hold in my heart, but should be left and lifted up to God. He knows what's
best. God's plan is always the best.

yes, of course it is not easy to get hurt and be in pain. but if not for all those bad things i went through, i won't be as strong and and as wise as i am now. cliche as it may seem, but things really do happen for a reason. i may not know yet all the reasons now, but soon enough i know i will. whatever those reasons are, am sure that God is just taking care of me and putting me in my rightful place.



and to you who has always been there... i know that you aren't a patient person, that's why it still remains a puzzle to me how you are able to still be there. maybe it's meant to be that way? or we're meant? love? devotion? obssession? hehe.... just joking. i don't know... i will never know what the future holds for us just as yet. but i thank you for everything... with all my heart. am truly grateful to have you in my life. as i've said before, despite of all the pains we went through, i wouldn't want to change a single thing that happened, because if i do, i may not ever find my way to you....

"someday" by nina

since my last song post has nina's version, i decided to post one of her originals. this is the only song of her that i like, since most of her songs/albums are covers anyway. when she was still starting out, the first ever song i heard of her on the radio was "jealous." it did catch my attention coz it has a different sound. although i didn't really like the song entirely, i thought it was a nice song and that this girl got potential. but soon enough, my interest on her kinda waned because she didn't really do much originals. honestly, i prefer her rival, kyla, more.

anyhooo, nina caught my attention again with this song. it's nice in the sense that most of us girls, i guess, can identify with the song. for me, the simplicity of the song made it very effective to the listener. i do hope nina makes more original songs like this one. the same goes to other artists, may they be new or old, who just pick out favorite songs and make it an album. i guess one all-cover album is enough in, say, ten years or why not just add one cover in an album instead of doing an all-cover album? still, it is best to create an all-original album. it is hard, yes of course. but wouldn't it be more fulfilling to produce something you really worked hard for? besides, covers can be reserved for gigs and events. there are still so much songs in the world of ideas just waiting to be created and heard.

someday you'll gonna realize
one day you'll see through my eyes
but then i won't even be there
i'll be happy somewhere
even if i cared

i know
you dont really see my worth
you think you're the last guy on earth
well i've got news for you
i know i'm not that strong
but it won't take long
won't take long

coz someday, someone's gonna love me
the way, i want you to need me
someday, someone's gonna take your place
one day i'll forget about you
you'll see, i won't even miss you
someday, someday

but now
i know you can't tell
i'm down, and i'm not down anyway
but one day these tears
they will all run dry
i won't have to cry
sweet goodbye

coz someday, someone's gonna love me
the way, i want you to need me
someday, someone's gonna take your place
one day i'll forget about you
you'll see, i won't even miss you
someday, someday

conspiracy april gig sked

1 (W)- Noel Cabangon
2 (Th) – Johnoy Danao
3 (F)- Joey Ayala
4 (Sat)- Syalam & Makiling
5 (Sun)- Gospel Jam (5-8pm)
6 (M) - 3P
7 (T) - Writers Night (KM 54) 7pm/ Mayo Baluyut
8 (W) - Alamid
9 (Th)- Closed (Maundy Thur.)
10 (F)- Closed (Good Fri.)
11 (Sat) Cynthia Alexander
12 (Sun)- Gospel Jam (5-8pm)
13 (M)- Piano Night w/ Rica Arambulo
14 (T) Writers Night (Alitaptap Storytellers Philippines) 7-9pm/
Lolita Carbon
15 (W)- ACW Reggae, 5th Sister & Lester Cannon
16 (Th)- Toto Sorioso
17 (F)- Joey Ayala
18 (Sat) Comedy Night: Mike Unson’s Sinister Stand-up
with Stanley Chi and Uli Oposa
19 (Sun)- Gospel Jam (5-8pm)
20 (M)- Piano Night w/ Rica Arambulo
21 (T)- Writers Night (Lirahan) 7pm/ Ray Olaguer
22 (W)- Agatha Obar
23 (Th)- Light it Up: Christian Musicians Night
24 (F)- RJ JMNZ
25 (Sat)- Cynthia Alexander
26(Sun)- Gospel Jam (5-8pm)
27 (Mon)- Songwriters Night
28 (Tue)- Writers Night (Teatro Pasiking & CDC) 7pm/Nyoy Volante
29 (Wed) - Salinawit ni Pete w/ Dondi Ong, Harana sa Kasarinlan,
Astarte Abraham and Pete Lacaba feat. Ferdie Borja on Piano
30 (Thu) - Color it Red

Conspiracy Garden Cafe
"...where real people, like you and i, converge and co-inspire..."
#59 Visayas Avenue, Brgy. Vasra, Quezon City (across Shell gas station)
for inquiries/reservations: 9206517
conspiracy_garden_cafe@yahoo.com

my earth hour

a few days before the 28th of march, my tita kept on saying that "earth hour" will be observed on the coming saturday. well, she didn't actually said "earth hour." maybe she doesn't really know that term. i think she was more of saying it's "earth day" and that lights will be turned-off for an hour on the 28th. so, i said to myself, "oh, that's good. at least she will or wants to participate." am happy to think about that because i didn't really expect her to be someone who supports any kind of cause. well, unless she finds it out from someone. then that's the time she usually echoes it out to anyone she talks to or comes across with, like it's as if she knows it like the back of her hand and believes everything about it unfalteringly. and so, since my mom and i live with her, then of course we are usually the first ones to hear her preachings, much like the endless litanies she yacks, that i grew up with, and that she still throws from time to time.

so, saturday came. while my mom and tita left for the church for an anticipated 6pm mass, i rushed off to conspi at about 7pm or so. aside from the "earth hour" that i will be participating in for that day, a friend-conspirator invited me for a launch of a portrait sketches exhibit. i arrived at conspi almost 9pm already as the traffic on edsa near trinoma is horrendous. hay.... i read a chapter or so of dan brown's "angels & demons" getting through that traffic. anyhow, when i got to conspi, the program for the exhibit launch was almost over. and as soon as it ended, all the people inside the music hall came out and "earth hour" officially began.





it was the first time i saw conspi without any lights on, except for the candles that the staff gave out so that we wont be groping in the dark. and while the candle distribution and lighting is happening, a group of musicians took out their guitars and started singing and playing good music. nice... it was like a simple "inuman session" i used to enjoy when i was younger. an artist, who participated in the sketching sessions for the said exhibit, also jammed with his guitar and harmoica. yes, at the same time... galeng! even an american friend from guam really enjoyed the night jamming and playing some of his originals. this american, whom we fondly call tito joe or uncle tote, frequents conspi. he never fails to go to conspi everytime he's in the country. he says that it's his most favorite place on the planet. and to prove that he was really exhilirated that night, he knocked-off my beer and my shorts got kinda wet. hehe... but it's all good. that won't really ruin a great night of fun with conspi friends. it was actually the first time i participated in the "earth hour" since i was not yet familiar with it before and am glad i had my first at conspi.



meanwhile, back at the house. when i woke up the next day, i was having my breakfast, then my tita joined me. so, i asked her if they turned-off the lights the day before. this was sort of what she said: "hinde... late na rin naman kami nakauwi. at saka magpapakain pa ako ng aso, maaatrasado ako, gagabihin ako. nananawa na nga akong magpakain ng mga yan. saka... wala rin namang nagpatay ng ilaw dito sa kalye natin."

hmmmm..... sigh.... i just kept quiet. i didn't want to say anything.